#especially when i was very clear

[problematic-fictive-edits]

its okay if not but could we get a queue check? thank you in advance!

Hi, we actually had a previous queue check request about last month, but all through that month I was incredibly ill due to an infected tooth (that was recently removed) and barely worked on any requests.

I'll go ahead and answer it this time, though!

Queue Check!

Moodboard for a transfem Voldemort (Harry Potter) with themes of potions, motherhood, and snakes

Stimboard for Wilbur Soot (YouTuber) with themes of food and flowers, nothing sharp

Stimboard for Ranboo (YouTuber) with themes of black, white, purple, glitter, and texture stims

Icons for Kuya (Nu Carnival) with purple floral themes

Stimboard for Chocola (Nekopara) with glitter, squishy plushies, and paws

Stimboard for Satou Matsuzaka (Happy Sugar Life) with themes of fruit, animals (no dogs), and calligraphy

Stimboard for Springtrap (Five Nights at Freddy's 3) with themes of horror robotics, rabbits, and things that remind him of his daughter

Moodboard for Kaeya (Genshin Impact) with themes of regret, unrequited love, ice, wine, and peacocks

Subtle icons for Oh Sangwoo (Killing Stalking) with themes of nature and forests

LGBT+ Icons for an AroAce Bridget (Guilty Gear Strive)

LGBT+ Icons for a Bi, Boyflux Shoto Aizawa (My Hero Academia)

Stimboard for Darwinism (Realicide) with themes of liquid and metals, no slimes

Moodboard for Ciel Phantomhive (Black Butler) with themes of devotion, lilies, mourning, and architecture

Icons for a Bi John Doe (John Doe) with BPD

Stimboard for Hank J. Wimbleton (Madness Combat) with themes of medical equipment, hospitals, weapons, and femininity

LGBT+ icons for a Fictivegender, flamegender, firegender Dabi (My Hero Academia)

Icons for a genderfluid Ivan Braginski (Hetalia) with PTSD

Stimboard for C!Tommy (YouTuber) with themes of cows and flowers

Stimboard for Jschlatt (YouTuber) with themes of light amber/soft browns, mossy green, ram horns, fluffy things, and texture stims

Icons for a Bi, Trans Huxley (Don't Toy With Me) with Autism

Stimboard for Serial Designation V (Murder Drones) with themes of bubbles and robots

Stimboard for G-Man (Half-Life) with themes of Lego, space, Liminal spaces, and stirring stims

Icons for an Agender Philip Wittebane (The Owl House) with NPD

Icons for a Genderfluid Wanderer (Genshin Impact) with NPD

Stimboard for Ayato Kamisato (Genshin Impact) with themes of swords and colors that match his palette

Moodboard for Lance (Epic Battle Fantasy) with themes of guns, explosions, smoking, and red

Moodboard for Anarcho-Communism (Centricide) with themes of schizophrenia, green, and animals

Icons for a Cinthean Reginald Tetra (Cemetery Mary) with BPD

Drafts!

Moodboard for Modeus (Helltaker) with themes of blood and hearts

Inbox Check!

Stimboard for Reginald Tetra (Cemetery Mary) with themes of violins, pianos, writing, tea, and dolls

Icons for an Agender Vasilis (Blackout Hospital) with BPD

Stimboard for Mochizuki Honami (Project Sekai) with themes of pie baking, apples, pastel green, and red

Stimboard for an olive-blooded Vriska (Homestuck) with themes of makeup and wax melting

Stimboard for Hermitcraft (YouTuber) with themes of the moon, hat making, red velvet (not food), red themed cat things (if possible) and no slime

Moodboard for Dabi (My Hero Academia) with themes of soft blue, space, and little gear

Stimboard for Benry (Half-Life) with themes of machinery and metallic slime

Stimboard for Lixian (YouTuber) with themes of video editing, keyboards, and monochrome stims

Moodboard for Dabi (My Hero Academia) who has black wings with themes of family, flying, and nature

Stimboard for Teruteru (Danganronpa 2) with themes of flower, glitter, and red

Stimboard for Skull (Katekyou Hitman Reborn) with themes of purple, shiny things (no glitter), circus tents, soft things, and cats

Moodboard for Dabi (My Hero Academia) with themes of found family, cats, and healing from trauma

Moodboard for a Villian!Izuku Midoriya (My Hero Academia) with themes of schizophrenia, MLM, and green

Stimboard for Liu (Creepypasta) with demisexual flag colors and cloud slime

Stimboard for Mastermind Ishimaru (Danganronpa) with themes of red, black, and white

Stimboard for Hank Venture (Venture Bros) with themes of rock music, bats, and fuzzy textures

Stimboard for Wallace Breen (Half-Life 2) with themes of colorful stims and weaponry

Current queue ends on May 22nd, 2023!

~💖 Bebe

[technically-human]

Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...

Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...

Part one

[a-very-tired-jew]

No surprise that two big name anti-Zionist Jewish accounts are denying it's a pogrom and blaming Israelis and Jews. Even with having them both blocked their stuff seeps into my feed. And it's like, damn. Ya'll hate your own people that much huh?

All the evidence shows it was pre-planned and a massive mob hunted down Jews and Israelis. Videos of the attackers yelling "he looks like a Jew" as they roamed the streets looking for people to attack. (But don't worry, that evidence was definitely faked because Hasbara, right?)

Yes, some Israelis did some racist ass antagonistic shit, and that should be decried. But to actively hunt down anyone who "looks like a Jew" and attack them? To attack people who stepped in because "You saved a Jew"?

It's a fuckin pogrom. But these two big name "anti-Zionist" accounts deny any and all violent actions taken against Jews as anything other than what they are. They've made their names on being anti-Zionist and have even stated that they think Zionism is the real antisemitism and won't touch any other antisemitism until they're done with it. That means they'll excuse any and all violence and rhetoric against their own people to appease the rest of their moral grandstanding circle.

I'm not surprised that this is their positions, but, like, if you're an anti-Zionist and these are your token Jews, then you need new tokens.

[antariies]

being overwhelmingly white isn’t unique to gw2blr in fact i’d say most fandoms on tumblr are like that. but sometimes when ppl are like “why are there so few poc in this space?” it’s not because none of us are interested in gw2. it’s because, unintentionally or not, you guys have curated a space that is so unwelcoming and uncomfortable to poc that it dissuades us from engaging at all and, on occasion, has driven us out.

[qkmlh]

Still ducking hilarious to me that Zoro & Sanji began their beef because they thought the other was misogynistic and it came to a head of no return when Zoro felt his title of ‘Luffy’s specialest boi’ threatened by Sanji’s comment

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

[loppiopio]

just some 🥥 related sillies i've made for that fic we all know.

[panharmonium]

i am not usually interested in dramatically canon-divergent scenarios because the canon story is what compels me, but i've been obsessed with this moment ever since i re-heard it during my second viewing. from the perspective of someone who already finished the story once and now knows the truth - this was wild.

WHAT IF?

[mosstrades]

im having an absolute unadulterated blast with the Ethersea prologue for many many reasons, it's beautiful and exceeds all my expectations.. but also. there's many moments here that genuinely make me go "oh god damn, these people are Americans." the Quiet Year system is a profoundly fascinating and revealing game - nothing tells you quite as much about how somebody sees the world than asking them to imagine a new one.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Priest getou and nun reader or villager reader....(anything other than the word both isnt acceptable...😡😡😡 /j) -🪄

🪄 ANON I SEE YOU AND YOU RAISE A VALID POINT but please consider…… priest!geto and non-believer!reader.

imagine just waltzing into a church one day. almost as if on a whim. you don’t believe in god, you aren’t interested in praying, but you’re exploring this quiant little town, and the church looks pretty from afar, and you figure it could be a nice way to burn time.

you enter the building to find that a sermon is taking place. a priest is speaking to the few rows of people listening. the church is fairly small, but paintings and sculptures and the mellow glow of beautiful cathedral glass give it a sense of mystique that you’re drawn to. you take a seat and listen along, halfheartedly, not praying like the rest, not singing along to the hymns… you stick out like a sore thumb, but hey, it’s not as if anyone is paying attention.

except someone is, and it happens to be the priest that was holding the sermon just a second ago. the same one you spent most of your time oogling once the paintings started to bore you, because he’s so pretty for a priest. beautiful long black hair, amber eyes, sharp facial features, pretty hands and fingers — and the smoothest, silkiest voice you’ve heard in your life. like a sun-soaked bundle of lillies.

… also, his cassock is just a little too tight of a fit to tear your eyes away from.

you stick around a little longer once almost everyone has left, just scrolling on your phone and basking in the quiet, and that’s when he approaches you. he jokingly tells you that it’s always obvious when a non-believer enters a place of worship, but he’s not mad; he’s amused. you end up chatting a bit about your beliefs, he’s a lot more chill than you expected, and…. well. he’s just really, really charming.

so maybe you end up coming back the week after. maybe his smile is a bit like a spider’s web. maybe it becomes a kind of routine to speak to him after his sermons; you still don’t sing along to the hymns or spend any time on prayers, and he still finds it funny. maybe once in a while you end up liking a paragraph from the scripture he’s reciting, and he’s always more than happy to discuss it with you. but mostly you’re there for him. for your chats, for standing outside and badgering him about his beliefs while he smokes and listens with an amused grin.

rain hits the ground with a steady rhythm, earthy tobacco floods your veins, spiders by the ceiling weave a web of dew, and his presence is just a little more intoxicating than you’d deem appropriate.

suguru just… isn’t a very orthodox priest. he doesn’t care for the bible as more than a literary piece, he has his own view of god, his own thoughts on worship. he smokes. he may or may not occasionally manipulate church-goers into donating money so he can invest in another overpriced painting. you ask him if there are any bodies in the basement you should know about, and he answers that any self-respecting priest wouldn’t conduct their blood rituals in the basement of their own church. he knows how to pick locks. he tells you once, very quietly, that he doesn’t believe man was created in god’s image. there’s a look in his eyes that you don’t comment on.

he’s funny. charming. pleasantly suspicious. your conversations are enjoyable for the both of you, and eventually the edges of his cedar eyes begin to crinkle the slightest bit whenever you walk into his field of vision. sometimes he eyes your lips for a little too long, and a honeyed irony seeps into his grin when you call him out on it. he asks you if you’re tempting him on purpose, and you shrug. whatever exists between the two of you remains unspoken.

one day, he tells you that he believes it was god who sent you to him. you furrow your brows with a protest, a mutter reminding him of your beliefs, how you believe in free will — how you waltzed into his church out of your own volition. no one else’s.

he only smiles, and flicks the butt of his cigarette. you think he remains unconvinced.

[prince-liest]

I’m reading Witch King by Martha Wells, and now that I have read more than one (1) series by this author, I have been suddenly brained with a two-by-four sharpied over with “realizing that I really enjoy novels by Martha Wells because they live in the specific niche created by the intersection of casually and thoroughly queer casts and non-romance storylines”

I am as ever a sucker for non-human main characters struggling with their very human feelings, which is why I jumped on Witch King the moment I saw “the author of Murderbot wrote another book with a main character that’s non-human,” but I live in this dichotomy where I can really enjoy reading queer romances but I don’t really identify with non-ace characters (which is not actually something I figured out how to differentiate until I was Last Week Years Old). so there are lots of books out there that I enjoy reading but it’s comparatively rare for me to read something that feels like it was written For Me and Martha Wells does that very well

anyway, give me more ace it-pronouns human-spliced robot main characters and people-eating demons who consider rank over gender when finding new bodies to inhabit

[cappycodeart]

I'm Mao Onigawara of the Ground Defense Force! I'll protect the peace of Japan!

I was privileged to be part of @dotzines pris-M-agic Zine project, and this is my illustration for it! When picking a magical girl, I wanted to represent a series that was influential on me growing up but would be underrepresented in the zine. Despite other options having a more meaningful influence on me now, I knew they'd be (rightfully) more popular. However, Ground Defense Force Mao Chan was the anime that REALLY got 10 year old me into anime (and, down the line, magical girls!). Strange, right? With these two combined factors, it became an obvious decision.

As for the drawing itself, I wanted to highlight the titular character Mao. Despite being mostly pink in design, her representative color in the story is green. It was a fun challenge to balance that out appropriately while also finding a way to convey her role in protecting the land/ground/earth.

FULL ZINE CAN BE FOUND HERE!

[bonebabbles]

I keep starting and abandoning posts that go into my drafts, as I try to stay tasteful about how fucking revolted this part makes me. Like, I'm legitimately unsure if the very relevant trauma I have is making me see things that aren't here

But first we see that Star Flower is trying to ingratiate herself to the group, just after she reappears from chapter 5. Chapter 5 is about how Clear Sky is still abusive towards his son, and she comes in after stroking his ego, stressing how alone she is, and appealing to how she'll be loyal unlike his child. (She glances over at Thunder, directly implying this.)

Now in Chapter 9, she's babysitting and trying to care for Milkweed's kits (in spite of discomfort from Milkweed), taking a wet sleeping space away from the others, and pulling more than her own weight "without complaint." Putting herself through harsh sitations to prove her worth.

All while trying to appear extra attractive to Thunder, and later Clear Sky. Basically every man in power who can "protect her"

Like, am I going fucking crazy? With how we later find out that Star Flower was "promised as a mate" to One Eye's subordinate Slash, is... is that hypersexualization? One of the extremely stigmatized symptoms of sexual abuse?

She goes to find Clear Sky alone to throw herself at his paws, and he's very quickly attracted to how she promises to perfectly obey him, have no needs of her own, and finally be the perfect servant that he desires

"I don't deserve your trust because I am dirt. I understand you because I also regret something. I'd die for you. I'll never betray you unlike those who have."

This isn't manipulation. She means this. The story is playing their romance sincerely. She's comparing "betraying" Thunder by telling her own father about an assassination ambush to Clear Sky's history of child abuse, physical assault, and murder

She believes she's on the same level as this; a monster who murdered a childhood friend in a fit of entitled rage. She was a victim of One Eye who really believes that the way her father used her means she "understands" this monster, deserves this treatment.

And Clear Sky LIKES that.

He likes that she will have COMPLETE FAITH in him. That she will follow him WITHOUT QUESTION. That she will OBEY his orders. That's fucking verbatim, that's THE TEXT!!!

WHILE HE'S STILL CRYING ABOUT "ive tried to atone every day" FOLLOWING THE LAST TWO BOOKS WHERE THE ONLY SHITTY THING HE DOESN'T DO IS MURDER INNOCENT WOMEN

Am I insane?? Am I wrong??? Am I missing something here???? Why the fuck is the fandom takeaway "haha sexy girl steals his dad." Did I read the same book

[themanwhomadeamonster]

The 1999 combat theme and its foreshadowing because the autism got to me and I spent too long trying to figure out this soundtrack

Jumping off from @brokenjardaantech's WITW music analysis post here - go check it out, it's very insightful and lays the foundations for what I'm about to talk about! And thanks to @theterribletenno for the burst of inspiration by giving me a massive oh shit realisation in the most chilling way possible LOL

Spoilers under the read-more; TL;DR at the end :'^D

To preface, the soundtrack is structured in an ABC structure with bridges between A and B, as well as another between B and C that borrows from A. The key starts in Cm, briefly modulating to Gm in section B then back to Cm during the second bridge, and settling on Em for section C. In-game for WITW you most likely will only hear up to the first bridge since the Technocyte fight only goes for around a minute long

Sections A, the bridges and partially C feature genre similarities to grunge rock with fuzzy guitar chugging, whammy bar, and palm muting, while the drums are notably sharp snares (except for the first bridge, which are clean bass kicks that gradually distort transitioning into section B's style). Musically, it sounds like a typical fighting soundtrack meant to hype you up - the melody is confident and likes to push and pull its rhythm. But in section C it notably become emptier in its layering while keeping the distorted drums, placing emphasis on the lyrics (which I'll get to below lol). Heavier syncopation and polyrhythms are also introduced.

Section B however is the main outlier. This section is where it most strongly resembles industrial rock: rhythmic synth layers begin to accompany the melody (a pedal point line that plays every semiquaver/sixteenth note), synth drums replace acoustics and the guitars drop the fuzz that is characteristic of grunge and steadily strum every quaver/eighth note. Compared to the push and pull rhythm of section A, this section is steadier, less chaotic than the other sections, it wants you to focus on this section.

Notably, the lead guitar introduces a familiar leitmotif: This is What You Are (which @brokenjardaantech goes more in depth regarding its use in WITW). Here, though, its second chord becomes flattened (Dm -> D♭m) and introduces a diminished, dissonant sound. To me this was the first hint that the song may actually be about Arthur's downfall. This is What You Are is a musical leitmotif that recurs in moments of vulnerability, especially when someone is at risk of losing their sense of self, their identity and what they are. It plays during The Second Dream when we discover the Operator, during the New War when Eidolon!Lotus just lost herself to Ballas and can't recognise the Tenno, and in WITW during the Vessel "fight" when the Tenno is forced out of their Warframe.

I was prompted to actually dig more into the lyrics because I saw @theterribletenno bring up something really interesting

In this specific song, the leitmotif is diminished, it's corrupted. "Surrender to the corruption" - this is what Arthur is afraid of. I brought up earlier that section B had a genre shift. The contrast of the music is important, it's highlighting something, and together with the musicality of the leitmotif, it's making a sense of urgency and danger. The leitmotif is a warning to Arthur.

Section B sings these lyrics:

Break it, break it, Break it open!

Compared to the desperation in the other lines, these two lines are sung mockingly. The Infested are trying to break Arthur, and are succeeding. Their voice is becoming his. But there are actually two vocal lines in this section - you can also hear muted backing vocals in a much less aggressive and lethargic tone warning that "Disillusion". Arthur is trying so hard to keep his own voice and stay clear-minded but it's being drowned out and he's nearing his breaking point, and Albrecht, based on the Codex Fragments you find, is well aware of this.

In section C, while the layering is less intense it's noticeably more heavily syncopated and polyrhythmic, and introduces new (accompanying) echoing and dissonant synth layers reflecting the confusion and disorientation that Arthur begins to feel (these synth layers are actually introduced in the second bridge, but are more easily heard in section C). Section B and C also keep the synth/distorted drums that section A and both bridges lack (at most it's a reverb in those sections); the industrial sound of the song becoming associated with the increasing influence of the Infested over his humanity.

So I tried deciphering more lyrics for each section; I haven't figured all of it out and most of it could very well be wrong because of how heavily clipped the vocal line intentionally is so I don't want to make anymore assumptions than I need to, but I can understand enough of it to realise that the song is foreshadowing Arthur's corruption to the Infested. In green are the lyrics I'm confident are correct:

A:

Sting it, sting it, sting it! Sting it, sting it, sting it in the flesh!

Bridge:

I don't understand! It brings more disease!

B:

Break it, break it, Break it open! (Disillusion)

Bridge:

Sting it, sting it! Sting it in the flesh!

C:

Who's dreaming? Who's the [???] It's a vision[?]!

TL;DR: the grunge/industrial genre hybrid represents Arthur's humanity/Infested respectively, and the song becomes increasingly industrial as the song progresses, most noticeably through the increasing distortion of the drum sound. Section A sets the stage, section B serves as a warning to Arthur that he's losing his sense of identity as the Infestation drowns out his "voice" while a dissonant version of This is What You Are plays, and section C is him experiencing confusion and disorientation as the Infestation continues to corrupt him.

[noirve]

for some reason every youtube reactor who hasn't read the book and watches iwtv s2 just immediately says they don't like armand but they love love love lestat which is like. to each their own but they don't even know armand at that point and lestat was awful and abusive to louis and claudia during almost all of s1 like.... what is this thing that makes them all weak for the white villain but instantly dislike the brown villain when it's not even clear yet what he's done??? i don't understand oh wait

[tricoufamily]

was pose shopping for this is the fall and saw this set i didn't need that was too cute not to download anyway.............cries and screams